Reminisce ; Vice Chancellor Cup Part II

Assalamualaikum,

Hye hye, I can't wait to finish the story! How about you guys? Let us continue the previous post. *Muka semangat* Sesape yang ta baca lagi kindly check this one okay (= Reminisce ; Vice Chancellor Cup Part I.

The question I left, 

Did we break the losing curse?

Yeah, we did. 

We won over them this time around & steadily stepping to the semi- final. That was quite unexpected, yer know life is just ironic. Always the time we got things that we don't want and otherwise happens. Allah gives you something that you need, not what you wish. Isn't it?

 Quarter final, the best speaker was giving his speech.

We were quite anxious, mix feelings some more. Not to mention we were happy of course for breaking the curse and at the same time pursuing our aim to step to semi finals. The match up for semi finals were released and we are going to go against taaddahhhh! Guess who? The team with 5wins during the prelim and surpassed the league. I even said to them, "you know we are not going to win this round. Thank God, we can pack up and go back home.". Seriously. Hehe.

Few pictures on the semi finals. Ohh, we were wearing pink. Ooowwmaaiigaawwwdd, ladies so much la pakai pink je >,< Hehe






Through breaking rounds, we were trying to be flexible, not fix on one position. Previously, Bro Hilmi was the whip speaker. When Reyn replacing him, she was taking the first or the second. Me also, first and second cause I need to do reply. Izyan, second and third. This time around, I was the second.

dedicated prime minister I can tell

whats wrong with my face? NOOO

 FKP B, Amarul the best speaker

 "yang berhormat ni tak baca surat khabar ke?" Hehe

Finished our round already, hehe!

 waiting for the semi finals verdict

 

 3 lassies

Though, the only thing that we had in our mind was "GOING BACK HOME YES PLEASE" since the morning. When the result was announced I just finished with my praying when Izyan called me

 " Tyra please be quick, result is about to release".

 I was brisk walking when on my way to the motions room Izyan called me again 

"Dear, we are going to final." 

I was startled at first but then I just smiled and say Alhamdulillah. Hehe, ye lah memang tak nak masuk final tapi kalau dah rezeki bergolek depan mata ta kan tak bersyukur? Kan?

When I was about to reach the motions room, Izyan & Reyn were approaching and we were all hugging. Meeyyhhh, of course la so happy. It was unexpected that we'll go this far with so many problems and so on. Ahh, I hate it nobody took our pictures at that moment. It was precious. Ever. 

preparing for the final, abang2 medic giving their advices

Bro Amar, Bro Qayyum, Sis Syu, Bro Hazim,

Thanks to abang- abang medic for helping us out through the finals preparation. We appreciate it (=

 congratulations from Miss & yeah I love this picture <3

So, yeah final! Here we come! ^^

Things that we feel a bit upset about, the grand finals was not so grand. Err, I have no mean intention but as finalists we thought that management need to work out on that. Last year, the finalists were sponsored with clothes, they just need to debate on that night,  we can say that dorang dapat layanan first class la overall. But this this year, lemau sikit. Sedih tsk tsk tsk )'=

 on the audio room, testing the mic

 final stage was awaiting

cuak faces, hehe

 about to start

 im not sure whether this is the main speech or reply speech

 Reyn was in action

 POI please yang berhormat!!

 mohon kak Ain jangan marah >,<

 I cant remember what was happening

redha dengan kekalahan

Actually, there's one little secret that I want to reveal. Is it still consider as a secret when I openly talk about it? Nahh, hehehe. I hope u guys can extract a lesson from it. Actually, we kinda didn't want to go to finals, after we won the semi we were whining about going back home and not wanting to debate and all that which I could say, it shouldn't be said. Like hey, u never asked for it but u got it. Be thankful la. Those who are in dire want to go to finals but they can't make it? How do they feel about it? Banyak songeh pulak kan. At the moment, we didn't really think that way. Until we lost and we really feel the severe pain then we realize our mistakes but it was too late. We learned our lesson, hard way through. We cried, but that didn't change anything. 

After all, we still think it was not so bad. Hey at least we made it to final. 3 lassies that got final freak, but then we were still enjoying our moments. So to chill out, we went to McD lepaking and release the tense, laughing and having those priceless moments some more. Even it probably not immediately chasing the frustration but at least we still had a good time. Kan korang?

u want some?

A massive thanks to Bro Aliff, the Mock Trial judge, was also the best speaker for the VC English Debate, for a big treat that night. We owe you big big time seriously! Bro Azuwa, Bro Hilmi, Bro Omar. Last but never the least, we can't never ever repay you Bro Shaher & Sis Ain (the spouse) HAHA. U guys are awesome. They were the one who be with us, beef us up through the hard time, channelled the strength, helped us with the preps, and almost everything I can say. Stand patiently especially with brat myself, I'm sorry for that. I just like being consoled by u guys my dear sis and bro (= Thanks sangat. Allah je boleh repay you guys for your deeds. May Allah bless u forever.

bro shaher!

 Sis with english debaters (:

Thank you to my teammates for your cooperation, stand & bear with me I know I pissed you guys off a lot. But still, u did great dealing with that. I owe u guys too, korang kena marah, I was pressuring you guys, Tyra mintak maaf sangat okay? )'= I love you all.

Special thanks I dedicated to all of you guys, Sis Syuhada, Sis Hakimah, Sis Aini and each and every one of you that facilitated, be with us through the time. Thank you, thank you very much. I have nothing to give, But ALLAH always has something to repay your kindness. Thanks for painting it with me, the beautiful memories that I'll never forget. 

Please keep this in your heart, I love you all. And please, never forget me in you du'a. Uhibbukum fillah, abadan abada (:

Reminisce ; Vice Chancellor Cup 2012

Assalamualaikum, 

Alhamdulillah I finally finished my second semester of my first year, and even more another 23days I'm gonna turn into 20 years old. I'm a big girl! Oh, I can't believe it time flies so fast. I feel like it's just yesterday my mum still brushing my hair and put powder on my face but now I am a twenty years old girl? Indeed, times never wait. 

FYI, this week is gonna be our study week then I have 7 papers ahead, I wish all my friends and whoever read this post, please shoot me with your du'a so I can do well in my final and achieve my target. 

I planned to write this long time ago, but I haven't got ample time to do it so now I'm gonna share with you all, one of the reminiscent memories of 2012 I guess. And I hope it'll stay that way.

Last Vice Chancellor Cup, I decided to participate malay debate since I was a Malay Debater as well during my secondary school. Sometimes I got more feel urging whenever I debate in Malay simply because it's my language and I'm proud of it certainly. At first I need to choose whether to be on3 of the jury for english debate or participating malay debate & I think I had made a right choice. 

That day, when we had our english debate training we need to do public speaking on the title "My Happiest Moment". I had my 7 minutes speech talking about this (= So now I think I'm gonna run my post that way. 

Have you ever played Angry Birds games? I'm pretty sure that u guys did. Playing Angry Birds games sometimes, we think the level seems easy but we had hard time to pass it otherwise. Another time, we think we not gonna pass this level cause it's so difficult, but then yes we did it. And it was splendid. I think sometimes life works that way. Things always go unforeseeable, might hard than it looks and the other times it's easier that it looks. That was what happening to me during VC CUP 2012. 

We have no people to represent our Faculty, to be worst we were loaded with unhelpful people some more. Teams were set up a day before the date of competition. The only one who worked out with me earlier was Izyan Nazihah. We did research together, thank God I had her! The teams were rearranged, some members dissenting, and all that. At last, we have Raihan & Bro Hilmi in our team.

the night before the competition

the journey began here. Round 1, Win.

 Ahhh, they were tamhidians.

After the round. Nerdy look >,<

 Motions room. Waiting for the match up.

 

 They are Pandanians (Medic students) Judges

So for the first day, we won 2rounds out of 3. We lost over KK1 for salah bukak konsep, we were the government. Opening the case is very important in debate so yeah. Lost. Bites.

Never mind that, move to the fresh second day. We thought it will be smooth & swift , instead the lost pain that we still suffered but.. unfortunately. We lost with margin 1 the day before. IDK what was happening it appeared that the margin was 11. Can u imagine 11, those who got 11 margin is like 

"Assalamualaikum, yang dipertua usul pada hari ini adalah Lynas Bukan Agenda Politik. Emm err I'm sorry I can't really speak in Malay"

God knows how we feel at that time, we were crying especially Me & Izyan. We had enough hard times, it hit so harsh that we almost couldn't take it. We were refused to continue to the next round but after all the dramas and tearshed we went to the third round still. We were not doing this for ourselves, we did that for FSU. We carried the responsibility. 

 3rd round, Tamhidian again. We won thank God.

Won at the third round, we gradually gained the confident. Alhamdulillah. The fifth round, the last round for the day was against FPSK (Medicine). I think that was the plausible round I went through. Cause I feel like all of us performed quite well and Izyan was excellent. At the moment, most of the other languages rounds were finished and they went to the DKF to witness us. The DKF was almost full!

 2012 funniest face ; Izyan HAHA

They captured my whole reply speech, one sweetest feeling, people laughed on your jokes, getting the solid applause from the audience once you finish your speech is just so breathtaking! 

We thought that we had win the round but it happened otherwise. We lost. Well, unbelievable. No, I'm not bragging. Just repeating what people were saying. But overall it was okay cause we still manage to break the quarter! Yeah, alhamdulillah.

this one is epic fail picture of the year trololol

 half of the contingents

 IRDK what to put

 round that we lost to KK1

We were given a whole week to prepare on our quarter, please note that we still have classes to attend and assignments to be done. SO we were not really prepared actually, only two nights before the day. Our aim was only to break the semi, cause we knew that we won't go beyond that. Plus, all we thought about was going back home. Dah start semester holiday kot sabtu tuh, tsk tsk tsk I wanna go back home!

 

 quarter final, against KK1 another one more time

Actually the moment the match ups were released we knew that we not gonna break the semi cause yeah we had history with them. Lost history. But last night, we decided to just enjoy our rounds and just kick the arse well we are going back after all. So that's what we did. 

Fuuuu~ Seriously let's take a break first yea? SO many pictures loaded here I think I'm gonna continue it on the next post. 

Did we break the losing curse? Stay tune yea kawan- kawan! (=

life lesson

Assalamualaikum, 

I don't know where to start, seriously. This is awkward. Cause I'm gonna storytell something that a bit private to me but I think I need to speak this out loud. I just want to share, sharing is loving I believe. 

First, hey I'm going to be twenty. I'm a big big girl in this big big world. 

I have one week left before I end my first year degree. Times fly, so fast. It never waiting you. 

Yeah, You live with people, I live with people. Honestly I might look "sombong" yea that's typical. I've been labeled with that long time ago. I'm not sure why, I don't smile often, I brisk walking I don't really greet every person I meet along the street, I'm short sighted sometimes I didn't put my glasses when people smile at me I don't know u're doing that cause I tak nampak! Sometimes I don't even talk much.  Few reasons I can give why they always say I'm sombong.  

To be frank, I'm not the type who would give a damn on what's happening around me. Like, I have my own world, I'm comfortable with that. I listen to my music, I dance to my beat, I wear my clothes, I read my kind of books, I don't run with crowd I go my own way. That's me. Maybe I'm used to it you can say for I'm the only child in my family. My upbringing that shaped me for how I see things around me. Everybody has their own skeleton in their closet. I had my history. I have my own reasons why I don't really open up, I don't want myself to get hurt and I build the wall to see who cares enough to break it. I run away sometimes to see who dare enough to follow me. I dissent myself sometimes of I'm afraid that my words, my present could hurt certain people without me knowing it. I don't want them to get upset & they talk behind me for things I did wrong. I had it enough.

But sometimes I wonder why would people give a shit about me. I don't talk about u behind your back, well I also got certain things that I don't like about you/people but as far as I try I can comprehend with it. I keep it inside, I keep things in line. I do that for you and me. Cause I know u have your reasons that I might not know. I don't want to judge u, I try not to hurt u cause I don't want you to hurt me too. Unfortunately people didn't do the same. 

I'm sorry I disappointed u did it for I didn't do it to you. I'm sorry that I need time to pick up the pieces and build it again. I'm sorry i really need time to handle that. I'm sorry for I may look strong but that doesn't mean it's okay to hurt me then. When I get hurt, I'm sorry that I need to have time on my own to set up everything again. I'm sorry once I make up my mind I may seem harder. Please don't just expect me to walk away, forgive and forget every single thing like it never happened.

 I just taught sometimes people who hurt me are so lucky cause I don't know how to hurt em back. 

So for what u did to me, I may forgive every single thing If and only If u're sorry and u really mean it. Cause I learn that forgive is one hardest part of life that I need to get used to. But dear, forgive doesn't mean forget. Certain respect dat u've lost I'm sorry I really can't help. 

And people, If they be true to themselves & not blindfolded they'll see the truth. I pray to Allah that they'll see what is right & wut is wrong.

Life is long, and I choose to be strong. Allah, He's always by my side.

I'm still learning the life lesson.

Kalau dia sayangkan akak, kenapa dia tak pernah pegang akak?

Assalamualaikum,

Sup lovelies! Sup or what's up bukan sup as in sup tulang ke sup sayur okay, hoho. I got a lot of works to do, but I guess I need to write it here since I was scribbling my notebook for stuff that I want to share with you guys. Lagi pun belog ini asyik ta update je, padahal banyak sangat benda na cerita. Well guilty feeling possessing, I'm obliged to say sorryyyy. Ehhhh >,<

 Please read it from the bottom to the top

Betul kan, everywhere you go people keep talking about marriage. Mushy here and there. Even you getting invitations from your own friends, same age kot to their wedding. Your junior even, younger than you is getting married. Like marry marry marry, kahwin kahwin kahwin. O_o

But that's not what I'm going to talk about. What with my title? Closely related lah kot dengan ape yang saya cerita kat atas tadi. I have this one friend, a girl. She's cute, older than me. One day, where girl's talk taking the space she told me about her boyfriend. I'm here no way to embarrass her, I just want to share with you all. SOme might know, and the other might never ponder about it. She told me that, her current boyfriend is not her first love but since that guy loves her so much so she decided to give him a chance. Few times they went out together, she said

"Akak pernah terfikir, dia tu gay ke sebab dia tak pernah nak pegang akak. Ta kira la holding hands ke, pape. Even kat dalam kereta bila akak na lean on his shoulder he refused. Akak takut la dia tu betul ke suka akak, suka perempuan. Kalau betul dia sayang akak, kenapa dia tak pernah pegang akak?"

Okay. Kalau you sekolah agama u can say this one is ridiculous. But I didn't go with it. Bitch please, jangan berlagak sangat. Ta semua orang tahu benda ni. Right?

This is what I said not exactly la but briefly ; 

" No lah akak, bukan dia tak suka or tak sayang akak tapi dia nak jaga akak. Saya pernah baca, dalam hubungan ni, lelaki adalah nakhoda. Ta kira la bf gf husband and wife, sesebuah hubungan tu kelangsungan dia pada lelaki tu. Kalau dia tak pegang akak maknanya dia sayang akak lah. Dia nak jaga akak. He acknowledges that he's not in the position to treat u that way. He aware that it might leads to something else. Pernah jugak baca lelaki kalau dia betul sayangkan kita, dia tak akan pegang kita sebelum kita sah jadi milik dia. Sebab apa? Sebab dia hormat kita. Dia tak kan mahu kita tanggung dosa. Lelaki yang baik adalah lelaki yang berusaha untuk menjadi ketua dalam hubungan yang dibina, maknanya dia nak something serious. Bukan na kata lelaki yang pegang-pegang tu ta serious, ada je yang serious pun tapi it's better that way lah. Keep things in line. Tyra rasa relationship is about making u worth for each other. Dia berubah jadi lebih baik, kita pun berubah lebih baik. Cause a real relationship is not sehari dua, fikir lepas kahwin lagi macam mana. Anak- anak? Kalaulah sebuah hubungan tu dipenuhi dengan dosa, macam mana kita in the future? Berkat kena fikir jugak, sebab hidup kita ni panjang lagi."

Macam baik je saya cakap macam tu kan. Tapi saya cuma berkongsi dengan akak tu apa yang saya percaya. Banyak lagi yang kami cakap tapi ta boley la na tulis semua >,< , lepas tu akak tu menangis, she hugged & thanked me. 

I'm not in the position nak condemn sesiapa, sungguh. Saya pun tahu, cakap macam gampang, susah kot nak buat! Dan mungkin saya belum pernah merasai lagi bagaimana perasaan sebenarnya kan. So saya tak nak cakap lebih-lebih sebab saya takut cakap- cakap saya ni makan diri sendiri pulak. Naudzubillahh... Cuma, benda yang kita tahu dan kita mampu buat tu, amalkan lah. Sebab dosa ni sekali kita buat, nak buat lagi. Lama-lama dah biasa lepas tu nak lagi... 

 Okay, tu je lah kot. Dan saya masih lagi berdoa (refer to da picture above). Doakan saya jugak ye kawan-kawan? ('=